I wake up to the heat of someone’s palm against my shoulder. Twisting around, my hand moves faster than my brain, and I snatch it off me.
“Jesse, it’s me, Bell,” she rushes out before I can take it any further.
“Fuck.” I release my grip on her arm and sit up, forcing myself back to the here and now.
“Did I hurt you?” I reach for her searching for any sign of a mark left by me.
“It’s fine. You barely touched me.” She holds her arm out letting me inspect it. I check it over one more time before releasing her and relaxing.
“You wanna talk about it?” I study her face, eyes calm, soft mouth. She’s not freaking out.
“Just some shit that visits my dreams sometimes, nothing that needs to touch you,” I reply, shocked I’m not retreating.
“I don’t mind, Jesse,” she pushes, and I almost cave. Almost.
“The last thing I want to do is talk about this shit, Bell.” She doesn’t argue or press, and I’m grateful for it. I don’t think I’d be able to keep my cool if she did.
“Come back to sleep.” She lies back down and I follow her. She doesn’t ask me any more questions, or make me feel like I need to tell her everything.
“That ever happens again, don’t wake me,” I warn. A menacing thought strikes through me picturing what could have happened if I didn’t wake in time. She’s lucky I didn’t hurt her, like the last time a woman touched me while I had a nightmare.
“You don’t always have to be so brave, Jesse.” Her hand moves to my dog tags. I don’t stop her. I’m starting to like the feeling of her hands touching them.
“Never tried to be, Bell. But talking doesn’t help me. Never has.” I think back to the time when I did try and it forced me out of control. Talking about those triggers only amplified my insecurities. When death sits afar, mocking you in the dangerous confines of your surroundings, it fucks with your head; nothing was going to change it.
Besides, my issues weren’t what I had done. They were what I had survived. My conscience wasn’t clear and my honor wasn’t clean.
“Promise me you won’t touch me.” I keep my tone even, controlled.
“I promise.” I take her hand in mine and bring it to my lips. Maybe one day I will let someone in. Let her in.
Today isn’t that day.
But today, I didn’t push her away.
That has to count for something.
*Review copy received from the author for an honest review*
4.5 “I’m going to Hell for this” Stars!
This series is one of my favorite MC reads!! The guys of Rebels MC are so BAD, so HOT, and really great guys!! I first fell in love with Kadence and Nix’s story and then very much enjoyed Sy and Holly’s. BUT, what I have been waiting for is Jesse’s story!! Jesse’s mixture of humor, flirting, and bad ass has had me itching to get his story. And just so you know early in this review, I was not disappointed!!
“Less talk and more fucking, sweetheart.”
Seems like there is always one guy in the group that is the player and the one who thinks he will never settle down. Never say never, though. “The one” always comes along when you least expect it. And in Jesse’s case, she comes along TOTALLY different from him.
“You playing hard to get makes me want to get you a whole lot more.”
Bell is a sweetheart! I REALLY enjoyed her character. I loved her compassion, her fight, and most of all her feistiness when need be. She knew exactly when to push Jesse and when not to. I was initially worried that her innocence was going to cause a lot of whininess and pity party crap, but the girl held it together like a champ.
“You hooked the un-hookable.”
Bell and Jesse have so much going against them. They are total opposites, but we all know opposites attract. And they both have LOTS of family baggage, Jesse more than her. So their story is a struggle to get through their baggage and come out on the other side loving each other. Many times I found myself mentally screaming at them for their choices!!
Desertion was everything I hoped it would be and I can’t recommend this series enough. Especially for those that enjoy foul-mouthed, bad ass bikers with a soft spot for their women 🙂 Happy Reading!!
including the following:
Paperback set of the Knights Rebels series,