Do you know that feeling when a knife is in your heart, twisting and turning? Do you know what it’s like to have a car run you over a million times? That’s how I’m feeling. Rage builds in me and, instead of screaming and yelling, I sit in front of Larry, numb and frozen.
“I can’t do this, Larry. I’m fucking human, you know? I have feelings!”
He brings me into his arms and tries to calm me down. “I know and that’s what I told him.”
I can’t give Nicholas what he needs, even though it’s what I truly want. I refuse to break up his marriage and be the one that he uses to escape from Jamie. If something is up and he’s doing this because she’s manipulating him, then that’s a different story and I’ll beg him to leave her. I don’t know the whole story and I’m not sure if I even will get the story. A little voice in my head keeps screaming at me to fight for the man I love. But I don’t know if that’s the right answer.
“I’m gonna go lie down. Thanks for the coffee,” I mutter.
Back in my room, in my safety area, I place the steaming cup of coffee on my nightstand and lie down, facing the balcony.
Tearing away from the sun rising, I force my mind back to sleep. It’s been the longest few nights without Nicholas. I don’t know where to go or what to do. I can’t forget him. Every time I close my eyes, I see his eyes, his smile; I see everything. My chest fills with ache. Sitting here crying over him while everyone else is living kills me. The fight in me is slowly going away. Unable to stand the silence I open my music app on my phone and play a song I haven’t heard in a few weeks – our song. It plays over and over again so I can remember our dance and how I felt when he was holding me. Everything feels heavy and miserable. I scream into my pillow and pray that I can be taken away. I don’t care if we weren’t together for a long time. When it comes to love, there’s no measurement in time. It’s how love makes you feel and it made me feel whole. I’d give anything to feel that way again.
* A review copy was provided by the author for the Blog Tour *
~~ 4.5 “Gut Wrenching” Stars ~~
Well where do I even begin to explain all the emotional up and downs this book brings on. Talk about a relationship roller coaster!!!!
Vision of Destiny is book two in the Infinity Series by S. Moose. This book starts up right where Vision of Love (Book 1) ends. We were left with ONE major question at the end of book one and I will say that we do get the answer to the question, but it takes some time to get the full story. This book was full of twists and turns and some shocking developments. I read this book in less then a day, because I couldn’t put it down. I couldn’t turn the pages fast enough either…I needed to know what was going to happen. Now I know anyone who read book 1 is probably wondering if everything works out for Karly and Nicholas and if they get their HEA….well I am not going to spoil that, you will just have to read the story.
I honestly thought this book was even better than book 1. The flow and pacing of the book was great. In book 1 I thought there was a lot of jumping around and unfinished scenes, but this book was completely different. There wasn’t any time that I got confused or felt like I lost time or that things were left unfinished. I truly believe S. Moose’s writing gets better with every book she releases. I felt she gave an accurate portrayal of the hardships some relationships go through. Love isn’t always easy and the road is usually pretty bumpy, but if you believe in true love and have trust and faith in your partner, you can believe that everything will work out for the best in the end. My only reason that I didn’t give this a complete 5 stars was because I thought we were left waiting for the BIG answer for to long. I was hoping it would’ve come out sooner and I also wanted to smack Nicholas towards the end….His crazy connection to Jamie was starting to grate on my nerves by the end. But as you can see I still truly enjoyed this story!!!
I loved that we got to see some new characters and the old ones. We get to see a wonderful side to Bradley. He truly was a great friend to Karly and I loved the direction the author took his character. Lexi and Larry were tremendous friends to both Karly and Nicholas. I loved that they stuck by Karly through the whole mess. They are friends everyone wished they had. We get to meet Jensen in this book. I am not going to talk about him….you need to meet him all by yourself to truly appreciate his character. (I will say I am looking forward to his book 😉 ) Emma was still the adorable little girl she was in book 1. My heart broke for her so many times. No little girl should have to go through what she went through with her mom (Jamie)
If you are a fan of S. Moose or have read Vision of Love, then you don’t want to miss this book!!!
Vision of Love & Vision of Destiny
Nate Tebow as Nicholas Hayes
Vision of Hope
Ryan Patrick as Jensen Toscano