I knew from the moment I first saw her she was the one. The only girl I could ever want.
The only girl I could ever love.
She is light.
I am darkness.
She is innocent.
I’ve done too much.
She is good.
I am bad.
She is my every dream.
I should be her every nightmare.
We come from different worlds. She’s…perfect. And I’m…
Somehow she wants me anyway. So we’ll grasp at what we can. We’re going to make this summer count. She’s my secret. And I’m hers.
The problem with secrets is they never last for long. And when others discover we’re together, they’ll do whatever it takes to keep us apart. All I know is: I won’t let them.
Because Reverie Hale? She’s mine.
“Reverie, wait,” I say, shooting Heather a dirty look over my shoulder before I take off after Reverie.
Second time in twenty four hours that I’m literally chasing this girl. She’s fast I’ll give her that but I catch up with her quick.
“Reverie.” I grab hold of her arm and turn her around so she’s facing me. She looks upset, her eyes narrowed into slits as she yanks out of my hold and crosses her arms in front of her chest. The move only makes her boobs look bigger and my gaze drops. Lingers.
“What do you want Nick?” She sounds irritated. Sweet but irritated.
I jerk my gaze back up to hers. “Why did you leave just now?”
“I didn’t want to disturb you.” She practically spits the last two words out.
“What are you talking about?” I think I know exactly what she’s talking about.
“Are you with Heather?”
“What? No way.” I shake my head, shocked she would come out and ask me point blank. “Michael’s hot for her, not me.”
Her expression softens though she still sounds skeptical. “Well, she seemed very interested in you.”
“It was nothing, I swear. We were talking while Michael was lighting the fireworks. He let me set a few off but after a while, he wanted to take over completely. So I let him.” I shrug. “He was just showing off for Heather. Trying to impress her.”
“She acted like she was trying to impress you.” She sounds jealous. And sick ass that I am, I like it.
“Not even,” I scoff because yeah. I doubt she’s interested in me. Maybe she was trying to rile Michael up?
Heather had acted pretty weird when Reverie appeared. But she’s a girl. They always act weird. And I rarely understand them and their motives. Look at Krista. Though really she’s a terrible example because that girl is flat out crazy.
“Are you sure? Gosh, I feel stupid for asking. And insecure. You must think I’m overreacting, which I probably am.” Reverie’s voice softens even more until she’s practically whispering. “I just…after last night…I don’t know.” She shakes her head. “I thought…”
“You thought what?” I encourage when she stops talking. I’m dying to know what she was going to say.
“I thought you…” She presses her lips together and shakes her head again. Closes her eyes for the briefest moment before she pops them open. She’s struggling with something and I wish I knew what. “Never mind.”
I step close. Closer. And she doesn’t back up. I’m invading her space, I can smell her, feel the heat radiate off her body and mine reacts. My skin tightens and I break out in a sweat. I take her hand and entwine my fingers with hers, notice that they’re trembling. She doesn’t pull away, doesn’t even seem to be breathing and I realize I’m holding my breath too.
Letting out a ragged exhale, I wonder what the hell is happening between us. The air is charged, heavy with unspoken declarations. I shouldn’t push her. She’s innocent. Sweet and virginal and sheltered. But I want to know what she’s thinking, what she’s feeling. I can only hope it’s about me. “Say it,” I murmur, needing to hear her confession.
It won’t mean anything though, what she’s going to say. It can’t. Not really. We’re the last two people who should be interested in each other.
“I like you. And I thought you liked me.” The words come out in a rush and she closes her eyes again, her expression pained. “Stupid right?”
My heart speeds up as relief floods me. She likes me. “Not stupid,” I murmur, dipping my head, my lips so close to hers that I…
Go for it.
And I kiss her.
It’s light. A kiss but not a kiss at all because I barely felt her lips. But I know from that one singular moment when my lips touched hers that they are soft. And warm.
* A review copy was provided by the author via Netgalley for the Blog Tour *
~~ 4 Stars ~~
This was the first book by Monica Murphy that I have read, so I didn’t know what to expect from this book. I have always been one to enjoy a really good YA or Mature YA book now and again, and I have to say that I am glad I took a chance on this one. I thoroughly enjoyed this book. This was a book about so much more then a high school aged love story. It was truly about learning to love some one unconditionally. About learning to accept a person for who they are now matter what.
I thought the storyline was interesting enough, that it kept my attention throughout the whole book. What I really liked was how this book was written. It is mostly in Nicholas’s POV, but Monica also gave us Reverie’s POV in the form of journal enteries, I really thought that was an interesting way of presenting Dual POV. The flow and pace of the book was also really good, I think this is a book that can be read in less then a day. Now Monica did add some suspense to the story right at the end, so of course this book does end with a CLIFFHANGER!!! I don’t think it was the worst I’ve ever read but it definitely makes me want the next book NOW!! I want to know how it is all going to turn out. I have found that lately a cliffhanger is almost inevitable, so I am glad I didn’t put this book off, although I did take a star away because we aren’t warned or given any indication that this book was part of a series. I truly think that the reader deserves to know, so that if they aren’t a fan of cliffhangers, then they can wait for the next book to come out.
As for the characters in this book, I really liked them. Reverie and Nicholas were complete opposites. Reverie was the good girl, daughter of a reverend, and living a really sheltered life. Nicholas was the bad boy, who got caught up in some trouble that wasn’t even his fault. Nicholas was put in jail for a lie his best friend told, and when he finally gets out, he finds out that his mother is terminally ill. Nicholas is only 17 in this book and has gone through a lot of bad stuff. The Reverend takes pity on him and offers him a job at his summer home, this is where he meets Reverie. Talk about a girl who is sheltered. She was 16 going on 17 in this story and she isn’t allowed to do anything. All she wants to do is break out of her shell and be able to act like a normal teenager does. When she meets Nicholas she is immediately attracted to him and he is to her as well. Over the course of the book their friendship and attraction grows, even though both of them know that it is probably wrong to pursue anything. Making their relationship kind of forbidden. What I loved the most about these two characters is that they were both able to see past each others weaknesses and learn to care for each other no matter what. It wasn’t an easy road, and they do have their ups and downs (mostly because each of them have severe insecurities and they don’t believe they deserve each other) but I was glad to see them work things out along the way. I will say that I did have to continue to remind myself of Reverie’s age, because while reading her journal enteries, they come off kind of immature or that she is younger then 17. But I also realize that most of that comes from the fact that she is sheltered and inexperienced that I am guessing that is truly how a girl would sound in reality.
I would recommend this book to anyone who is a fan of YA books or if you are looking for a book about unconditional love and seeing past a persons differences. If you have read Monica Murphy’s Girlfriend series, I am told this book is completely different and since I haven’t read that series yet, all I can say is that I’m guessing it is based off the genre of this book.
New York Times and USA Today bestselling author Monica Murphy is a native Californian who lives in the foothills below Yosemite. A wife and mother of three, she writes New Adult and contemporary romance for Bantam and Avon. She is the author of One Week Girlfriend and Second Chance Boyfriend.